Every Mom is Worth It

It's December 22, and it's a delightful day.. Yup, it is, especially for moms around the world who've been really dedicated for their family and intend to "neglect" their own needs. Yet, it makes me thinking about  the whole possibilities that might be appear and happen in the future of mine. Well, let's call it as a cliche thing but I think that we could not live easily as we wanted to be since, you know, God has His own way for us. I've been living and breathing for 22 years 'till now but still could not figure it out, at least what would I become in the next five years.. Hehe..

Being a mother is not easy, really not easy since we had to dealing with so many things that related with our family. A mother should "protect" them with love and care, and most situations, they give us the  most unconditionally love as if their own life was not really worth it. But you know what, a mother's life is much more precious than any diamonds in this world. Their life is really really worth it. Aaahhh.. I just can't imagine how my life would be, if my mother doesn't guide me. She's been always there for me, for better and for worse. Well, I admit that sometimes we argue about so many things and to be honest, I had this feeling, a "hate" feeling when those arguing wasn't ended beautifully. But hey.. That's the art of life and there is no doubt that I do really love my mom, and the more I breath and living my life, the more I realize that those things that she did to me is none other because she does really love me and wish the best for me..  :)

Therefore, I can't do anything to "payback". What I mean is that all the things she has done is really unforgettable and priceless, so I promise to my self that I just want to make her happy, for ever!! Love you so much, Mom.. Happy mother's day for every mom around the world!! :))

Spread my wings and fly away..

"Spread my wings and fly away.." is a phrase that always been running inside my head over and over again.. Kind of silly and stupid I think, but that is the fact.. I've been thinking of everything, the good and the worse, but still I really have no idea.. See, how stupid I am... Hahahaha...

You know, I had so many obsessions and dreams that I barely could to count it.. :p

I build those dreams during my entire life, but so far I could only reach, well, let's say only 2,5% of it.. Pity me!! I do realize that there are so many reasons and conditions of mine that make these dreams haven't reached yet.. I admit that I still "enjoy" my present situation and refuse to stand from my "couch". Therefore, I am still a stupid lazy young lady, I said young lady because my age is raising.. Hehehe..

I once post in my facebook that the time of mine is ticking but I still not moving. Yup, not moving, at all.. What make it so pathetic is that despite my recognition of this condition, I still haven't take an action, just an action to make it happen, but I couldn't do it.. And I've got to admit that I kind of "jealous" with those who had recognized them selves and refuse to be controlled by the situations. Aaarggh, what a feeling..

Although, I realized, that I have so many people who stand behind my back, I just feel that I'm not strong enough to spread my own wings, instead I'm waiting for.. I don't even know what I've been waiting for.. Oh my God, what a silly person I've become.. Hmmm... Yet, I'm still trying to be positive here.. I know and so believe that everything is beautiful on its time.. So, I'll keep trying to build my own life and pursue my own happiness then I could spread my wings and fly away.. :)

Well, my intention in sharing this, is none other to "push" others not to doing the same "stupid" mistake like I did, then the dreams that we had is going to be realized soon.. God bless us all..!! ^^

Movie Review: AVATAR

James Cameron's "AVATAR" is so great!!!! I put 5 star for this movie. Yup, 5 star!! No doubt about it!! 5 star for its picture, story, message, and the actions too. I guarantee that you won't regret it. This is a story about a condition where imagination met reality, since from the very first of the movie itself we are provided with a great motion picture that seems impossible to catch in the real life but it still happen beautifully.

We can see how Mr. Cameron wrap his work in a perfect way in order to show us about the life of a human being. There are so many scenes that show us how a human being could be very greedy to satisfy their own pleasure. And you know what, this is exactly what was going on in a society nowadays, what a pathetic image we had here. So, I can say that "AVATAR" is a reflection for us in living our lives and of course, it is not good for us in having these conditions. Therefore, Mr. Cameron himself is trying to make a "wake up call" so that we will not make the same old mistakes over and over again.

So guys, just go to the movies, enjoy the motions, and feel the experience yourself.. :D

Happy Holiday..!! ^^

Absurd..

I woke up this morning with an absurd feeling that quite haunted me. It really confusing since I don't think that I had a problem, my life been great lately. There's something wrong with me, I guess. Having this kind of feeling is really uncomfortable and give me a huge pressure... Hate it so much.. Hate it because I really have no idea how to solve it and it makes me look so weak.. Huaahh...

It seems that I've got to deal with it as my own "reflection of life".. I said that because I do been thinking about what would I become for about next five years and have I become a good person already.. You know, these kind of questions are quite bothering so much, at least for me though.. It's kind of a burden for me, indirectly, because you know.. We've been socialized and got involved with so many persons who really care to us, and absolutely, we won't let them down.. Well, frankly speaking, I do feel like that.. I do feel like I am letting them down, I really am not a good person. Aarrghh... If only I could turn back the time.. If only I was a better person.. If only.. If only...

Movie Review: The Mist

Just re-watched "The Mist" for the third times and still have the same thought and conclusion about it. How it possibly doesn't make any sense at the final scene.. Hahahaha... Stupid me, I guess.. :p

Anyway, if I may mention it, I'll say that the whole situations at that movie are kind of wasting and useless. Okay, maybe some of you have never heard about this movie before, so let me give you a brief summary first then.. :) "The Mist" is a movie that is based on Stephen King's novel with the same title. It is a story about a mist which covered the entire area and turns out to be the machine killer. At first, it seems like kind of a ghost movie or something like that, but as the scenes running, there is nothing like that. Instead, it contains a huge animal that eat everything. It has tentacle and fly like a bee, but it also has a sting like a scorpion.. Confuse already..? Hehehe..

Then for the entire movie we can see how people trying to survive and struggle for their life, but in the end, most of them are failed to do so.. Pathetic situation.. Yet, the most pathetic situation is that where the five survivor who decided to take actions and flee from the department store, a place where the population been hiding, finally reach their gas limit and think that they were no way out. Therefore, they killed them self randomly, and unfortunately, there is a last man standing who feel so regret about the condition that he had. When he finally gave up and try to "put" his own self onto the creature, in all of sudden there are so many soldiers who is trying to save the survivor... See, how come the whole ugly things happened and you know, the hero comes very very late... Once again, it's all wasting and useless, right?

However, for the ladies viewer, just like me, will not so regret with the movie itself since there are still some cute casts in it, and you know what, the very last man standing is quite hot too, can't stand for his body... Hahahaha.. Lol.. :p

Happy... Can I?

Do you ever had the feeling that you are actually worth to get a pure happiness instead the bitter sweet feeling? Have you ever think about the possibilities that could happen to you if you take another steps in living your life? Or even, you have this kind of regret feeling of what you have done in the previous life..? Well, I can say that you are not alone, at least, you got my companion.

Yeah, you can say that I am a looser who had no gut to stand for my own believes and stand for my own sake. But I took my steps back then influenced by so many reasons that you couldn't possibly imagine. I were right at the intersection whether I had to fight for my feeling or just let it go as the wind goes by instead. "Come on, you can't be like this, Steph.. You got to take an action. Otherwise you will lose your own you.." My best friend, Mika, who always been there for me, once said. As if all burden that I've got wasn't enough, she really got her point, I'm starting to lose my own me.

"Well, yeah... I know it.. It's just.. You know, it's not as easy as it seems.."

"Honey, you got two choices right in front of you.. Speak up, told them about your feeling and take the risks, or just sit and keep that as your deepest secret, 'till you die, I think.."

"Mika.. All I've wanted is just to be happy...."

Silence. That's all what happened at that moment, right now, and probably, forever. Aarghh.. Sometimes, I do really hate for being me, a person who has a right but got to be careful and prefer not to use it. As you can see, this situation really makes me so weak. All I can do is just imagining all the situations back then, situations which make me so thrill and quite unforgettable. The situations that give me a brilliant idea to be a pretty young bride with a hot good looking groom.. Ah.. So pathetic...

Yeah, right.. I'm pitying my self right now. It's a very sad situation where your entire family finally got those images too, but as the time ticking, surprise surprise.. It turns out that you are not the one who become the pretty young bride, instead, you just become the bride's made.. What do you think about it? Do I really deserve to be happy...? Well, I really have no idea what God's will for me.. I mean, yes, I am happy for my friend's wedding. It's just.. Not with him.. He was belong with me. We were happy until that day, the day when he met her, and in all of sudden, the world, my world, is ruin. Then here I am right now, standing right next to the happy newly weds and trying to re-build my own me to get my own happiness. Well, I just want to be happy and don't want to live pathetically for my entire life, and... Not forget to wish them a very great life in the future, absolutely..

*Inspired by Leona Lewis' Happy.. :)

Movie Review Time!!! "Sorority Row" it is!!! ^^

Here we go!! Let's enter into my favorite part in life, reviewing a movie!!! Hahaa.. This part right now, we're going to discuss about "Sorority Row". Ever heard that before? Well, it's not as famous as "The Twilight Saga: New moon" or "2012" which were very booming but it turns out to be disappointed for some people. "Sorority Row" is a movie about a group of young girl who lived in Theta Pi dormitory and kind of "party girls"; they are Claire, Chugs, Ellie, Megan, Cassidy, and Jessica. Then someday, they played a deadly game, well not in the literary meaning at first, but as the time ticking, this game turns ugly when a worried young man, Chug's brother, Garret, decided to takes action. And this is where the story begins....

Overall, this movie has the same type like "Scream" and "I Know What You Did Last Summer" where everybody who got involved in the previous actions died one by one because someone wanted to pay back.. And after watching the entire movie, I conclude that this movie is kind of so-so since the plot is predictable and we can figure out how the story will ends. Besides the plot, the whole story is kind of confusing and questionable since there are no scenes that could explain it. I mean, there is a scene where a young man name Kyle was suddenly got mad to his girlfriend, who none other is one of the five young women I've mentioned above, and he mentioned, quote, "You have no idea what my father has done for your sake". And there are some questions in my head too, how does the killer got Megan's cell phone and lift her body out of the well by himself since the well itself is way too deep.

Therefore, from 1 out of 5 star, I'll give 2,5 star for this movie.. Hehee... Well, this is my opinion, and if you feel curious about the movie itself, just check it, but for your information, you should not watch it by your self because there are some surprising scenes.. :)

Have a good holiday!!

Wow..!! Kalo semakin dilihat dan diteliti, permasalahan yang ada antara Pemerintah dan Pansus angket century ato apalah itu, semakin kesini semakin mbulet saja.. Gimana nggak, ni masalah tambah kaya bola panas saja.. Well, yeah.. Just like the other politics things... Once you got involved in it, you won't be able to get out of it.. Hmm.. Kasian juga sih sama pihak-pihak yang kesangkut tapi sebenernya they had nothing to do with it... Then, to be honest, i want to do something to make this thing clear.. Tapi ya, what can i do since i've got no power at all... Hahahahaa... Lha wong orang yang punya power aja bisa k.o apalagi saya yang hanya an ordinary girl.. Hehehe..

However, i'll try to meruntut permasalahan yang ada kali ya, biar bolanya jadi gak panas lagi... Hmm.. It all started with a video yang di claim sebagai video dari Ibu Sri Mulyani, Menteri Keuangan RI, yang pada waktu itu beliau sedang melaksankan rapat tertutup dengan pihak-pihak yang dinilai berkompeten dalam menyelesaikan masalah Bank Century, yang as we know, this case is really absurd and quite dangerous for the Indonesian economy yang pada saat itu sedang berusaha bangkit dan bertahan dari serangan krisis global. Dan, di sini ini permasalahannya, di dalam video tersebut muncul beberapa sosok yang terlihat seperti Bapak Robert dan seorang lagi yang nota-bene adalah pimpinan Bank Century seperti yang disangkakan oleh Bapak Bambang selaku anggota pansus. Well, there's nothing wrong with it, definitely. Namun, yang amat disayangkan adalah, tanpa adanya kroscek dan penelitian lebih lanjut, sangkaan ini langsung dibeberkan kepada publik yang benar-benar tidak tahu menahu tentang masalah ini. Jadinya ya.. Apa yang kita lihat sekarang, quite messy misunderstanding.

Dan kemarin sore, Ibu Sri Mulyani dan pihak-pihak lain yang terlibat telah melaksanakan konfernsi pers untuk meluruskan permasalahan yang ada. Dan Ibu, with all my respect, i do really support you Ma'am.. I mean, memang ya, kalo dilihat dengan baik, video itu bukanlah sebuah bukti adanya konspirasi atau apapun itu.. Toh, di dalam video itu juga terlihat jelas kalo banyak sekali orang yang ada dan mengikuti jalannya rapat tersebut, jadi, how come they made a conspiracy plan or something like that when there are bunch of people in the same room, i don't think so.... Lagipula, banyak pihak yang mendukung Ibu Sri Mulyani and her people for what they've done for this beloved country. Dan tentunya, menyayangkan adanya statement yang sangat non-sense dan memojokkan itu.

Well, seeing this stuff yang semakin gak karuan dan gak jelas endingnya, in my opinion, Bapak-Bapak Ibu-Ibu yang terhormat, please... Selesaikan dulu permasalahan ini secara internal dan baik-baik, jangan kalo ada apa-apa sedikit langsung lari ke media. Kalo begini terus, yang ada jadinya malah perang statement, seperti yang sudah-sudah. Dan kalo begini keadaannya, masyarakat jadi ikut bingung. Katanya wakil rakyat, tapi kok setiap yang dilakukan malah buat rakyat bingung dan "sakit" ya...? Ingat janji dan sumpah waktu dilantik dong.. Ingat slogan "Dari rakyat, Untuk rakyat, Oleh rakyat", jadi yang berkuasa ya rakyat... Lagipula kalo keadaan kaya gini terus, bisa-bisa ekonomi Indonesia anjlok lagi.. Gak ada investor yang berani nanam modal ntar.. Bisa gawat kan.. Ingat, there are still so many other things to deal with daripada semua tumplek-blek ngurusi hal ini aja... So people, let's make this thing right before it's too late, for the sake of our nation, Indonesia....

Well, here's the thing.. I've noticed about the development in political world nowadays. It's so creepy. Way too creepy so it could takes someone's life. Well, not only his life, but also those who connected and love him very much. What I'm trying to say is Do not ever join the political world if you never ever have a survivor soul, and this, I really mean it. Just don't!
Well, I have my own reason to said so. At first, of course we do still remember in KPK vs POLRI case, where every body is trying to "stand" for their own right and freedom. It is still unsolved right now, but hey.. There is a brand new case which is so surprising, not only for us, Indonesian citizen, but also for international eyes. We can see lately that there are two big opponents who arguing each other, stand for their thought and opinion. Why i said that this only an opinion, well hey, just look the situation, it doesn't make any sense, at all. Please.. Just bring a case like this into the court, not to the media. It's only wasting time and energy and of course a situation like this will give a huge negative impact for the government itself and not forget the confuse citizen. See, there is no good at all about this condition. What a situation we had here fellas!! Have you ever imagine a situation like this? A situation where those who got involved in it is none other the person who are supposed to be "protect" our beloved country?

Ok, I'm not trying to push them or something, but I just feel so curios, do they really think about us, the common citizen..? Do they really took those actions on the behalf of our sake..? I can't answer it and I do need the answer itself. So, someone....?
With all my respects, but please... Can they give just a little time of theirs not to dealing with that kind of stuff, instead just look down and see that there are still so many young neglected children. And you know what, I know that my beloved government had took their actions to dealing with it. But in my opinion, it's just not total yet. What I'm trying to say is that there are still no exact evidence in it. So, I can't wait any longer, can't wait for the actual change of this situation, because to be honest, Indonesia is way too left behind than other developing country, and I can't stand it.... Really need back-up here....

No titles just some collections.. :)

When I saw into your eyes

I see something magical,

Which makes me wondering so much,

What is the truly meanings behind it

You should not lie to me

Just stand and speak up

There is clouds in the sky

There are birds flying across universe

The winds blow easily

makes people see the possibilities of all

The only word I want tell

The only thing I want ask

How do you feel about me

Could I figure it out

Or I will keep it in my deepest heart (June 2008)

My imagination grows

My dream sets high

Far across the sky

When you with me tonight

I am sorry for in love with you

No matter how awkward

I will always stand right next to you

Listen to my heart shout it aloud!

Just let me by the one

Bring me to your life

That is the most precious one

When you teach me how to survive (Some time in 2008)

Ku terduduk termenung di sini

Menghitung detak jarum jam menanti hari

Dimana semua pencerahan dan jawaban kan terbuka

Hingga semua keraguan ini pun sirna

Tuhan.. Salahkah aku dengan apa yang kurasa

Dosakah aku akan semua permintaan jiwa

Tak bisakah kau legakan luapan dahaga

Aku hanyalah seorang pecinta

Yang mencoba untuk menjadi seorang pujangga

Sungguh ku tak kuasa

Menahan longsoran pertanyaan cinta

Karena sesungguhnya ku hanyalah manusia biasa (March 2008)

Here I come again..!! ^_^

Hmmm... It's been a long time for not to get involved with this world.. Been missing it so much.. And now.. Here I am, trying to get back with it and make some new improvement, hope so!! ^^

Well, let's started with a brand new story in a brand new life. Yup! It's been a year since I neglect this blog while doing something crazy and silly.. Hahaha... But then again, that is me!! An ordinary girl with thousands of stupid mistakes.. :p

Anyway, sharing my story of life for a year was quite difficult since I had thousands of situations, the ups and downs, which very unforgettable.. There are some major situations that amazed me so much. First, I finally graduated after a long four years of study, the lovely one though.. :)

Secondly, I went traveling by my self out of nowhere and got my first experience to do so..!! Hahaa, lovely!! Third, and the most major thing that could happened to me, is when I was chosen to represent my country in YES2009 at KL, Malaysia where 500 youth throughout South-East Asia were gathered and shared about culture and of course what can we do as a youth for our beloved country. Okay, this is unpredictable actually. I never imagined it, surely shocked me up!! It brought me a brand new experience and many things to be shared with my pals back here in Indonesia. Brand new way of thinking is spread out, at least that what I was trying. I'm trying to "change" the mindset as the beginning to make a bigger change. Since I do believe that this is the most crucial part in someone's life. Therefore, I'm trying to spread it out, and my best friends and family are my first object. Thank God, I found a way and they started to change, although a little.. :)

Luckily, it won't stop there since I'd arrange some movements with my friend who is also concern in social life and had the same thought as mine, more less.. :p Hopefully it will happen soon and I'll keep posting it!! Change, YES WE CAN!!

(^_^)

Lots of love,

Dewi